A Year Without the King

Hard to believe it has already been a year. Even harder to believe is how hard it is to try and put into words everything I'm thinking.

For those of you who do have memories, anecdotes, or other words to share, then please feel free to do so here.

As eloqent as I'd like to be, I am at a loss for further words. So please, share that others might remember, who in turn can share, and make true the phrase, "Long Live the King!".

It's been a year since we lost Jordan, and seasons still change. Snow arrives , then melts, and the leaves still bloom and wilt away when fall comes. I still wake up every day and I still go to bed every night. And I still miss Jordan.

An entire year has gone by. Too me it feels like an eternity. I went from seeing you consistently. Too never knowing how much you really meant too me.

We spent days together talking about the future. You were gonna own a five litre, I was gonna be a teacher.

It's been a year since Jordan left us, and nothing is the same. Sure the seasons change, but i realize now that life is not a game. Of course I still wake up, and of course I go to bed. But instead of calling him in the morning, he's the first thing in my head.

And so i live on, but there is no more basement. No common ground, no safe haven, no place for me to vent.

I live every day with you by my side. If i said you didn't change me i'd be speaking a lie.

So what should I say now? Ten more years will go by, and none of us will ever forget the day that Jordan died. We'll go on remembering him by our side, never ever forgeting what he meant to our lives. So even though my feelings may change like the tide, i'll go on embracing his spirit inside.

Tuesday December 4th 2007

Andrew Scott

http://www.citynews.ca/news/news_17524.aspx

here's the news clip about the service..

Amanda

A hand above the water, an angel reaching for the sky

Is it raining in heaven, do you want us to cry?

And everywhere the broken-hearted, On every lonely avenue

No-one could reach them, No-one but you

One by one

Only the good die young

They're only flying too close to the sun

And life goes on

Without you

Another tricky situation, I get to drowning in the blues

And I find myself thinking, well, what would you do?

Yes, it was such an operation, forever paying every due

Hell, you made a sensation

You found a way through

One by one

Only the good die young

They're only flying too close to the sun

We'll remember

Forever

And now the party must be over, I guess we'll never understand

The sense of your leaving, was it the way it was planned?

So we grace another table, and raise our glasses one more time

There's a face at the window

And I ain't never, never saying goodbye

One by one

Only the good die young

They're only flying too close to the sun

Crying for nothing

Crying for no-one

No-one but you